Respect

As a child I wished so much just to grown up,
If I knew this was it I would kept my mouth shut
I’m so tired I’m exhausted I just want to give up,
Maybe I’m not tough enough to handle this stuff.
I’m wounded but I will fight till I collapse,
Head up, eyes down, just fall and relapse,
Maybe cause I just need to relax.
I’m not smiling…I’m laughing out loud
Cause I’m so fucking proud of what I’ve been
You ain’t ever seen, such a character a personality
This shit isn’t what I supposed to be.
A fucked perturbed adult is this the final result?
Maybe or maybe not but for now…
Just let me be alone in this corner of my own,
Reloading ammo at my gun pointing and shooting the sun,
Anger so deep in my eyes one arsenal full of supplies
That I just hide and disguise but it takes just one shot
For you to catch and realise…you better respect me!